i have totally lost my way,
i don't know which direction to go
& which path to choose.
i need a "compass" to lid me out.
where my "compass"??

there few path but i really don't know which direction to go.

get diploma within 5yrs time.
1) go ite meanwhile take private O{$1k+}, 1yr rest to earn money, poly.
2) retain & retake O-level{~$500}, 1yr rest to earn money, poly.
3) ite & working then poly.
4) work & meanwhile took private O{~$1k}, poly [~4yrs get dip]

get diploma in less than 1yr.
{business course + expenses need <$5k}
5) loan & straight take private diploma with full-payment.
6) straight private diploma with installment.
7) work & meanwhile take part-time private dip.
8) work then take full-time private dip.

others types & choices.
9) get business diploma then take the tourism & hospitality diploma.
{5k + 7K = $12k}
10) Malaysia study.{~Rm 6k}
~ but need a Malaysian as bondsman.
11) Taiwan study at university. {education + expenses <$10K}
~ at least I'm not alone there.
~ so no need worry for stay, & will lost my way there.
~ jinjie korkor already at there.
~ jin-er & Jonathan will be there too.

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Wednesday(28/1/09)
Happy birthday to jessica!

morning went out ate breakfast.
then headed to taiping waterfall..
after fun headed to kaktao for wash up.

mum went to meet up with auntie fang.
so i went too, to eat chadol, ice kachang & penang laksa!

heard adults talking about the motor accident.
happen in early morning..
heard one was don't know which uncle son.
4jiu friend i think. so sad.

they said that area had few times accident already.
lucky i was not the one got aim,
as i didn't ride motor.
cousin got warning to be careful.

continue watch bull fighting.
after tomyam steamboat dinner.
yue jin aunt & jin-er came,
so mum & i chit-chat with them.
jin-er going to s'pore or taiwan study..
(till now i still don't know which path to go!)

super funny thing happened...
4th shen call yongsheng kor kor go buy medicine.
通胫丸(medicine for bone muscle)
& he bought 通经丸(medicine for manses)
the shop uncle given him the wrong medicine...


Thursday(29/1/09)
nasi lamak for breakfast.
curry fishhead for lunch going back to s'pore soon..

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currently at butterworth xiao jiu hse...
tired~~

Sunday Night(25/1/09)
went to kaktao 4th uncle hse.
eat dinner...&
play crackers & fire works.
watch firework & kana caiyee eye..

went to look for Patrick wong zi quan,
sadded, he went oversea for holidays.

Monday(26/1/09)
aunt & cousins reached, evening went to 1st uncle house.
at parit buntar, the chicken farm..
cousins(1st uncle son & daughter) was thr too.
2nd uncle family was there too..
& kids were playing crackers outside.
& adults having steamboat dinner, slacking & chatting..

after that to kaktao again..
gambling~~
back to butterworth.
wait for bath but too many ppl so i fallen asleep.
& mid-night woke up to bath,
they tht i sleepwalk...

Tuesday(27/1/09)
morning tomyam steamboat..
noon went to Seberang Prai city jusco to shop.
while xiao jiu they went to xiao yi po hse first.
& nothing had caught my eye.

then dad drove mum & me to sea side,
& leaving cousins at shopping center.
went to sea side eat chadol & asam laksa.

night went to xiao-yi-po hse at butterworth town.
had dinner there. curry chicken...
& went to find mum old friends,
they had nvr seen for more than 20yrs.
now at xiao-jiu hse slacking & downloading MVs

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Now at Malaysia Pinang
had been long time didn't update..
& my blog seem dead...
had been busying...
& lazy to updated
as recently my day happening recycling-ly...

accept Jan 14, 16 & 21 went back sch..
14Jan(Wed) went sch meet bun & jenn, then acc bun to RP.
16Jan(Fri) went with frenda & her mum then to CWP.
21Jan(Wed) went with mum to see principal.

& 23Jan(Fri) met xiali & frenda go MDIS.
then went CWP with frenda,
& met jas to center & stroll home.

24/01/09(Saturday)
6.20am set off from home.
had jam till about 9am then reach johor jaya.
changed tyres had rest at cousin hse.
& set off at 3pm.

we were lost in KL,
as thr few path to Ipoh, old & new.
i called Jonathan for help,but didn't pick up.
so suggested to called auntie fang,
but mum said she still doing business don't want disturb..

25/01/09(Sunday)
2am reach uncle(xiaojiu) hse.
early morning went to 4th uncle hse.
pray for grandpa...
& ate breakfast then vomitted
now at xiao jiu hse slacking watching "money no enough 2".

later night to 4th uncle hse for reunion dinner.
tml others will be reached...

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Monday(12/01/09)
slept in the morning, so when i woke up already late to get result. lucky jas & alicia did called me, reached sch 3pm..

get result slip & report book from mr tiru... nth to said, is just a piece of shit. walked home with jasmine.

people had been asking me why didn't i cry? ...
then mum & bro ask me why not cry out..
-> i don't know? maybe i 欲哭无泪了。。(cried no tears)

but i almost cry out when making choices...
stress!! don't know what to choose
-ITE?
-appeal RP?
-retain?

ITE - course i want not available, eligible choices i don't want ...
appeal RP - course i want point can't match, no money pay fees ...
retain - at least have an hope, better than private O's expensive ...


Tuesday(13/01/09)
morning actually went RP with frenda see weather can appeal a not .. but finally decision repeat. no choices, hope this time i made a right choice & hope can repeat. because i don't want take private O's...

Labels: stress

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haiix, had been a week since i last blogged.
less than 24hrs time O-lvl result will be out,
although i'm prepared to failed
but i really donno whr & what is my future.

what i can said now is:
"WHAT A BIG JOKE!"

my feeling now is?
nervous ... not really
happy ... can't be
sad ... don't know
difficult to describe...

alot of words want to shout out...
but donno whr to start...
so bored!

now still unable to sleep,
donno is too nervous??
or recently turn owl..

LNY is around the corner,
spring cleaning!!
another problem is...
no money how to 过年？

sian...haiix.
nobody trustable one i can talk to...
i'm so irritated...

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2008 Randoms photos

Labels: photos

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Wednesday(31/12/08)
went out with mum & kor early morning.
went the new shoe & my leg got stepped by kor alot of times,
even worst his friend stepped my toes & the nails broken.

mum & me waited for jas till afternoon.
went to 131 eat lunch.
went to jas hse played chinese chess with jennifer,
& i kept winning so boring.

after dinner jas & me meet up with alicia, candy, vanessa, fredrick, qihong.
at cwp for countdown.
& here goes 3..2..1..
HNY!! &&...
they sabo-ed candy by spraying here.
Happy birthday candy!!


Thursday(1/1/09)
Happy New Year!!
hope to have a fruitful 2009!
& Happy Birthday to Candy Heng.

bus-ed to vista point, buy snacks.
to vista park slack... walked to take last bus back.

they went to celebrate Candy birthday.
but i didn't go. sorry candy.
happy 17th!!


Saturday(3/1/09)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!

noon went took pot from jas.
went back home to prepared mushroom soup & pasta.
lucky alicia came to test the taste,
as i having sore throat & nose block so tasteless.
wait for jas nxt yr already..

everything done & dad back home.
& night candy, vanessa & fredrick came with a cake.
& we eat, sing song(bday), play mahjong.

11pm went blk 10 played twister.
kept sabo-ing each other...

p.s thanks alicia, candy, fredrick, jas, jennifer & vanessa celebrating her birthday.
& qihong for the "regret" (regard) !

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