Sunday, October 26, 2008
7:26:00 PM
**Although that book doesn't worth much money, but to me its a responsibility, since it with me so i have the responsibility to return it. Not everything can use money to buy, other then happiness, friendship can't use money to measure, trust and resposibility also can't use money to buy too. Although i lost faith on human being, i also never hope people to trust me, but at least i do my part to allow people trusting me, trust or not is not my problem already, at least i done my part.
虽然说那本书不值钱，但它对我来说是一份责任，我有义务把它完整的环给人。有很多东西是金钱买不到的，不只快乐、真情，信任与责任是不能以金钱来衡量的。虽然我完全不能相信任何人，我也从不要求任何人相信我，但我至少要做到能让人相信的人，相不相信那就不管我的事了，只要我把我的义务完成就为心无愧了。Labels: 无声呐喊 silent scream
7:17:00 PM
Thursday(23/10/08)
went to school study before 1pm, and my stomach very pain as i very nervous. took my Geo in hall, and my bag was placed outside the hall beside dustbin.
after my paper ended my bag disappeared! and few teacher help to find, but don't have. and i have no bag, so went to office asked for a plastic bag. people thought i brought plastic bag to school, had a prejudiced look on me.
stupid want to steal phone also no need to steal my bag what! make me so till "lang bei"!
my face was "black", when junxiong said hi to me i hacked care, and he still said i very "proud". i replied: "go police station la! want follow arh!!"
so went to make police report after jasmine brought me my handphone box. the police want to laugh but kept controlling, as my english is "super good". about 10mins later, mum called said my bag was found.
went back to school and collect my bag. Guess what was missing and what was inside??
ANS: my phone, keys and earpiece inside, but mingxiu Geo notes and my map book missing!!
and this is not the point was, it was found outside the hall, beside the dustbin!!! (4.30pm) which 4pm i was finding.
got ghost?? don't know. but 3 conclusion!
1st : prank me?
2nd : that person love geo too much?
3rd : or that person guilty stealing my phone so took notes only?
i very angry!! wasted my time go make police report and make me so "langbei" walking in woodlands with a stupid plastic bag.
after collected went to cwp with jasmine and the bus uncle dam guailan. just short of $0.05 want me to paid somemore the money no go into him. at cwp buy things then walk awhile, jasmine treat me eat duohao. thanks anyway.
Friday(24/10/08)
maths quite easy, after maths went to look for mrs yap but she having meeting. suddenly mr sha came to talk to me and make me very furious, as he said no one stolen my notes, maybe is i mistaken i never bring or placed other place. still said what, give me take examinations at hall already very good, said till like the school no responsiblity about this and is my fault can't blame school.
blaming me for placing my bag beside the dustbin, that why the cleaner took it to office.and blame me never place my bag together with the private O's student, he trying to push everything on me. He said he respected me, but i didn't respect him! i angry then replied him, then who respected my belongings!
He don't let me talk and expecting me to listen to him! so i forced tears to drop down my cheeks. He said: "now what you crying for?"
i replied: "cry for fun la, since you don't let me talk but never said cannot cry what. by the way crime is not a crime right!"
he shouted at me, and i stood there digging my ear. i kept controlling myself not to talk back ok! if i never respect him i already just walk off and hack care him, even shouting at him ok. i talk abit loud already very give face liao hor! before going he said he can don't let me take my O-level! WTF
if really no one took my notes and book then where did it gone? got ghost take or the book got leg bring mingxiu notes ran away?
ended up was grace chong accompany me wait for mrs yap, and she is the one who listen to me, console me. really thanks her, she still have exam in afternoon but still accompany me. moreover she wasn't a "good friend" of mine.
went to jasmine house cut onion for her spaghetti, helped her wash equipment and clean her kitchen.
conclude the whole day i ate a lot.
1 big bowl of rice.
6 piece of bread with milo podwer
8 zhuigui, with many caibo
2 ji chong fan
2 plate of spaghetti
1and half donut
2 plate of rice with a lot of chilli.
Saturday(25/10/08)
stayed at home, and slept till 5pm plus. watched midnight movie "butterfly lovers" with jasmine, alicia and fredrick.
butter lovers
Rated: 4/5
Sunday(26/10/08)
after moivie sent alicia home first then went to blk 21 eat breakfast, then chit-chat at playground. till 5am then walked home. actually going malaysia with mum but too tired, so fallen asleep.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
3:33:00 PM
Sundday(19/10/08)
i won "Judy Ongg It's A Wonderful World Singapore Concert 2008" which i never participate the contest. Since won it so gave to my mum, she want go but my dad doesn't want to go.
gonna mad! that 1pair of ticket at least worth $300 you know! as the judy ong concert ticket cheaper price is $88 excluding the tax!! Is crazy man!! somemore my mum said give people...
morning went to Johor Jaya eat breakfast with cousins.
cute??
Study chemistry, and finally not confuse with alkane and alkene general formula. study till i almost crazy!
Monday(20/10/08)
Chemistry, got quite a few question don't understood what they trying to ask.
Tuesday(21/10/08)
took my paper in the hall with all private candidates, everyone was looking at me as i am the only one wearing uniform... stress! and i shock by siewying in the hall.
after Paper 1 mdm shoba ask me how, i replied "aiya! easy la!", and she stared at me with a undescribable look.
Paper 2 die!! they know me i don't understood them!!
Wednesday(22/10/08)
guessing why i still able to blog???
as i was looking for some tourism info from the net, so blog lor.Labels: stress
Saturday, October 18, 2008
8:20:00 PM
Tuesday(14/10/08)
Happy birthday to Ong Bee Cheng
Wednesday(15/10/08)
Happy birthday to Grace wong
Thursday(16/10/08)
O-level started!
slept late and woke up early automatically.
reached school at about 8.50am, sat outside AVA room and mr sha walked pass ask me "can make it?". i shaked my head, and he sared at me: must have confidents!... although have abit confident but still very nervous. At AVA room surrendered handphone, and study abit.
physic that one i never ever did before, but both still quite easy, only both 4marks question don't understood, so anyhow wrote. extremely nervous and made few mistake, first my finger got burnt then chemical went in to my mouth and lastly broke 1 test tube.
At quarantine room, play poker cards but ended up get catch by mdm wong. when eating my lunch i got choked by the rice all thanks to that jonathan! then did maths paper given by mr wong. lastly someone get caught, then mr wong saw me using handphone after mdm shoba return, and he thought i never surrendered, and said: "you still dare to take out use!". LOL, i not pig ok!
Friday(17/10/08)
went to school for english lesson, but was late.. lesson ended at about 12.30pm, then went to have lunch and before going off went to see mrs yap. frenda went to my house slack...
met alicia at bishan top of the 8, as there having Yes933 game giving away money... a women very greedy she want to win both, another one is to guess the password in "mr chew & chews" programme. everyone was looking at her...
had to line up and we actually at the front between 10th to 15th, then i guess the probability to win is very small so wanted to go the middle but too late so went to the back. jiafa make me embarrass when i walking to the back. kept calling me ms pinky then everyone looking.
ended up a guy call nick(27th) won $2000 by picking one no. randomly from 1,2,3,5,7.. in 120 arrangement.
then another game giving away $50 & $500, alicia won by answering question, and sang "little dimples" song of course no extra money received. as jiafa call her superwoman tell her to sing gary superwomen..
after alicia was me, the first person of the selected 5. i thought is answering question then who knows, he want competition which is to said 933...drag..... the longest time will win and my oxygen not enough!! so money fly away!
should ask me question! almost all question about 933 i know, but i only sucks in guess song as long time never listen to 933 already, don't know got what new song.
went to best buy cable, then alicia want me to ask the people.
i: "do you sell this type of cable that connect phone and computer?"
salesman: "you want short one, very short on, long one, very long one, or very very long one, very very very long one?"
i: (showed him the cable) then this one is how long want huh?
Ah! SINGLISH!! OMG! tuesday going to have english O already still singlish.
that feller make me speak singlish, somemore is like shit.
Saturday(18/10/08)
Happy birthday to Hong! Koh qi hong!
stayed home arrange all papers, headache! stack up all the paper can challenge with "Taipei 101 building" already..
*i think its time to seal up my lappy already and maybe handphone too.
Monday, October 13, 2008
9:51:00 PM
really can't live without money, after October lesser income for my family, now things already so expensive and taxes and bills still kept increasing and more worst thing is my house income will be lesser.. money not enough!
eating already is a problem and yet still so unlucky. Can anyone answer me, why my destiny is so sucks!! others can enjoy their life after exams but why can't i? i must work immediately! who should i blame? can't i just be a normal person, have a normal life?
why so many unpleasant happening on me?? first is health problems and now here come financial problem! i can starve from hungriness, i can suffer from painfulness and sickness, but i really can't live without money.
now i know why elderly always said : "In Singapore can die, but cannot sick!" . As the medical fee is very very very high. Singapore doctors can live partly because of medical tourism ..
What i really want is just a simple life! why can't i be a simple person? i must find jobs in order to stable the income..although i wish to have my own future, but i , i have no choice, this is my fate.
i don't know how much time i still left, i don't know when i will go into my darkness of life, but before i that i want to pay all debts and repay kindness that friends given me.
if one day i had to leave this world, or i reach the darkness of my life, no need to be shock. I know there will be one can't see my future and everything, although i really scared but i will not drop any tears, i prepared for face and accept the cruel facts, but is just that was unfair to me.
And don't be shock! the day when i left, i don't please tears dropping for me, i only wish people who love me and i love will always remember me. As i believe i will live in your heart forever. (Words to my love one.)
Although tiring on keeping everything to myself, but i still have to kept it to myself till the last second.
虽然钱不是万能的，但没钱就万万不能。过了十月家里的经济状况会很惨，现在东西已经很贵了， 水电费很要起。钱不够用!!
吃都已经成问题了，还这样倒霉! 有谁能告诉我为什么我的人生那么凄惨!! 别人考完试可以享受人生，为什么我却不行! 为什么我必须马上工作？ 我又能怪谁？ 为什么我不可以当正常人，过正常的生活？
为什么那么多不愉快的事不断发生在我身上？ 之前是健康问题，现在却是经济问题。 我可以挨饿，我可以忍受病痛与痛苦，但我真的无法活在穷苦之中!
现在我才知道为什么老人家都说："在新加坡，能死不能病!". 因为医药费太高了。 新加坡的医生能活，大多都是来求医的外国人。
我想要得只不过是简简单单的生活罢了! 为什么我不能做个普通的人？ 我必须打多份工才能平衡家中的经济需要。 虽然很想选择自己的未来，但始终还是被命运阻碍着！没得选择，这就是我的命远!
我不知道我还有多少日子剩，不知道何时会走到我人生的黑暗，但在只前我想把所有的债务还清，回报朋友对我的恩情。
如果有一天我必须离开，或活在黑暗中，请不要惊讶。我清楚知道会有那么一天，我会看不见未来、看不清所有的一切。虽然心里很害怕，但我绝对不会掉一滴泪水，我已经准备好面对与接受这残忍的事实，只觉得对我很不公平。
请别惊讶! 如果我离开了，我不会奢求他人为我掉泪，只希望爱我的人和我爱的人永远记得我，相信我会永远活在他们心中! (给予我爱的人的话)
虽然扛的很辛苦也很累，任然必须独自扛到最后一秒。。。
Labels: 无声呐喊 silent scream
9:51:00 PM
Sunday(12/10/08) Happy birthday to Jenn!
felt very sleepy! about 2 meet up with ella and alicia at CWP and who know got a big surprise jessica was there too. went to ceni took neoprint. we headed to bugis while jessica went to AMK hub. walk at bugis street, & ella treat me drink water, very cool. anyway thanks ella. went home quite early..
Monday(11/10/08)
went to school for english lesson, but was late. who knows mrs lee got meeting so let us off early, frenda came to my house eat maggie mee and fallen asleep. 12 plus we meet up with mingxiu at CWP, then headed to bugis "guai ying ma" temple. went to 解千,mine and mingxiu one partly same, and the man said things about me was true. & suddenly nathalie called me, after burned it already we went to bugis street walk walk awhile and headed to library. mingxiu teach me abit of science pratical. went to KFC eat, frenda treat. thanks!. after lunch plus dinner headed back home.Labels: crazy days
Saturday, October 11, 2008
9:28:00 PM
Wednesday(8/10/08)
school started at 9am for sec4&5, first lesson was chemistry having mole concept test, need calculation. As usual when calculating with "tick-tic-ta" sound, stupid saif copied me but he make noise sound and he called pala and haziq to make the sound too. guess what? mdm heard so walked toward him and he do the question without calculating, so mdm lim said him....
after test zhiqing ask me the "tiak-tiak" sound is made it one? i replied: "saif made one, mine "tick-tic" sound nicer.". and recess sixian treat me and 2hotdogs, 3smile potato and milo, moreover she only eat 1hotdog and 3smile potato and milo. haiix, really don't want to eat but she already buy so eat lor. anyway thanks!
english mrs lee was late as she printing papers for us, so me,bun,xiali and liuchen sat outside and chit-chat about prom-night, shopping and holiday... then junxiong came to k-po, and we kept crapping. frenda never come,sat beside jx and we kept crapping, and mrs lee show us some animals picture from internet, they were quite ugly. they are mongoose, rhinoceros hornbills, hornbills, monkeys.
forgotten who saids the monkeys hands very long, so that they can swing from one tree to another tree. & i replied: "No! actually monkeys hands are short when was born, is they swing too much then their hands stretch long one". LOLx
& mrs lee son very cute, he called mrs lee to asked the baby brother to sent him to school bus. lesson end late as we didn't realise the time, bun, liuchen, xiali and me were last to go off as mrs lee saying about bun compo, it super funny, as translated from chinese. oops. last to take chemistry test, and alex kept nagging.
Then mrs lee came to class find xiali and checked jx bag, as her hp lost. she was careless, as she forgotten to took her phone and forgotten where she place in the room. after she found, she apologise to jx, after that jx turn and ask us: "does i look like the person who will steal people handphone?". i replied: "Yup!". then heard 5A&B guys diao-zhui, want to bit someone. (can said is serve him right.) & rushed home as going to rainning soon..
* Mrs lee really is a good teacher!! she knew she did wrong and she will apologise to student, not like some other teachers...
Thursday(9/10/08)
sick~absent from school.
Friday(10/10/08)
mrs yap said our O-level examination may held in AVA for 5NA, Dance studio for 4E. But i don't want because i got "air-con sensitive". still not sure as there some 5na don't want, 4E comfirmed... anounce about prom night, but never said what the theme..recess bun treat me eat malay rice, stomach very full. anyway thanks bun.
Chemistry mole concept test, and go through paper, meanwhile pala kept talking.& Suddenly he and saif kept asking why me and that person never talk.. asked what blog then cried, asked why never scold back and bla bla bla.. silent~~
went outside staffroom take test paper, come back liyun suddenly tell me becareful, don't know what jianfang what what, hack care. waited till 12.30pm mr tay never then all went off, then found mr tay, he said mdm ding teaching, but left me, bun, xiali and liyun can't have lesson left me and xiali 12.45pm then allowed to go.
*through out the day, almost everyone were talk about the same topic on what will happening on prom night. alot of people want to go for certain reasons, shaking head and BWG
Saturday(11/10/08)
don't why i slept more then 10hours, seem like escaping from study, feel very tired and had been washing toilet this few days... suddenly feel crying out, but there always no tears.Labels: boring days
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
4:36:00 PM
Thursday & friday (2&3/10/08)
Never go school.
Saturday(4/10/08)
still sick~~
Sunday(5/10/08)
grandma birthday so went to visit her..
Monday(6/10/08)
last geo lesson, no voice so when i talk others turn back look then laugh...
maths tky crapping about me.. said me and rebeacca buddy, then saying about correct spelling he kept looking at me.. cause i always spell wrong...
english quite fun, but frenda was sleeping through out the whole lesson. and mrs lee talk about her sons, super fun.
rush home super fast, as raining soon, lucky i reach home then rain. & mum wasn't at home, as she went to her aunt house with her sister, therefore my lunch, dinner and cloths all must done and wash by myself...
lucky still got left over kueh(s) for my lunch, and i fried 3 rice cake, 6 gu cai kueh, 2 soon kueh. went to mac study with alicia and jas. back home to eat maggie mee, simple but nice, because when hungry eat anything also taste nice.
Tuesday(7/10/08)
slept at 5am plus and woke up at 6.30am. rushed to school with my brother's blue jacket, otw to the back to sit, alicia and jas talk to me, then was qihong, roy and shahiz calling my name, and call for fun! what the...
maths in mathsroom very cold... 1st recess xiali treat me eat indian rice. anyway thanks... after recess was english, while waiting saw that zhongzhengtao, he called me Doraemon!! cause i wear blue jacket and with pocket!!
English lesson today was quite boring and do survey for school, almost choose disagree and strongly disagree... after Poa straight went home as i scared rain then can't go.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
7:10:00 PM
Monday(29/09/08)
absent from school, sick and cant eat solid food....
Tuesday(30/09/08)
Is late day of September!
cold morning, walk to school very windy.first lesson was maths very cold yet the guys still tell alex to on fan and jf said irene later want scold people already...cause the fan kept blowing towards me and i sick. no choice went to the back. after finish prelim correction do other paper, and don't know was who on music very loud,
then
i: "your father school ah? softer the music ley."
junxiong to another table: "softer abit la!"
jian fang turn off the song.
JX: "wow! so guai, off it."
Xiali, Liyun: forgotten what "listen to her word".(什么什么听她的话。)
JF: of course.irene, 大姐ley! even 35*C also feel cold. if not....
XL, Ly: it not later irene bit him.. or what
i: i never ever support using violent to settle problem one ok.
CONCLUSION : i where got violent, said until i very violet and very 霸道 like that... spoiled my image!
first recess can't eat things so drank hot milo. and almost vomit out my lung, as talking to sixian is really....
first hour for English with band1 mdm shoba class. roxanne listen to her phone music and mdm shoba allowed, so jonathan ask can anot and mdm shoba said: must sure is no phone. and i replied: "then that one also phone mah!". mdm shoba: "... ... oh my god, mah!".. oops so sorry...
send second hour mrs lee was late, so fun.. mrs lee asked us prefer mrs hazlan or mdm shoba class, and all replied same answer: "mrs lee!". we were so lame kept using chinese to translate to "English"... got chocolate and sweets from Mrs lee.
second recess crapping... Poa do paper 1 non-mcq.. reach home hungry but can't eat anything, only Milo available..
Wednesday(01/10/08)
first time of October, not much time lefting...
Happy children day
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